I have been doing a lot of dream work as my birthday draws near, as I usually do. Within the weeks before my Enter Earth day, I tend to get introspective. Since we are in the serpent portal in the Mayan Calendar, the veils have been mega thin, and dreamtime has been potent af!
I have been praying for clarity and remembrance around my soul contract, my reason for being here, my purpose. I've been calling in simplicity while diving deep into these realms, and paying attention to where I let myself surrender to support and where I tend to hang on.
I had a pretty epic dream a couple nights ago that really shook me, after setting the intention to meet a totem of mine in dreamtime. I dreamed my hubby and I were visiting his parents, when we all noticed this very unique spider in the corner. The more I gave my full attention to it, the bigger it became. It grew into a ten foot tall pink and peach coloured spider, that had two intwined seashells for a body, and a head with tentacles that resembled an alien and a crab simultaneously. I knew this creature so intimately, and that it was as old as the first drops of ocean on this Earth, and that we have walked together through many lifetimes.
All of a sudden, Keah started to crack it open, with all his might. The shell started to splinter and shatter down the center of its giant torso, and it was shaking its head and tentacles so fast, it was almost disturbing to watch. I could barely stomach the sight, yet couldn't take my eyes off of it. I knew I had to watch it.
The message was clear. Sometimes transformation looks like destruction. In order to change, we need to experience discomfort. I felt fear of it being hurt, but Keah was showing me that it was okay and that it was necessary.
Upon coming home, I noticed how many webs, spiders, and dream catchers of my making were in my home. Spider medicine is and always has been all around me, I just needed fresh eyes to see it all, I guess.
I've heard a lot in the last week of how I should write a book, how my writing has been powerful for people, and feeling it in my bones the desire to write for hours.
Purpose coming clear, crystal clear. It's amazing when you ask for something to be shown to you, and you are patient enough, it appears. And how you usually already know it in so many ways.
Feeling and hearing the call to simply focus more on this spider aspect of myself and weave words into worlds, I have always had such a love and appreciation for good writing, delicious stories, and the power of imagination. As my 31st year draws near, and the final year of my Saturn return, I am feeling into this call to write, and ground more into this particular sacred purpose on this planet, with this great sea spider spirit as my guide. Deep bows all of you who have reflected this medicine my way, I am grateful to receive it in its totality.
Spider Medicine ::: Creativity, weave your own web, patience, high receptivity, feminine energy, protection, cyclical
nature........ what are you weaving???
Art by Eric Labacz