"If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change."
- Dr. Wayne Dyer
One of the most powerful things that I have learned while living amongst the vast green jungles of Costa Rica is perspective. It is a form in itself that is always shifting and changing, disappearing and evolving.
We have all heard the line “change your mind, change your life”, but do any of us really know what that truly means? I never knew before coming here and diving into the work with plant medicines, what a crystalline cave my own mind was, how programmed I was, and in such a unique way I look at the world. Little did I know that, really, I was looking at the world just like my mother, and her mother, and her mother’s mother. Every member of my matriarchal and patriarchal family before me was a wave on the shores of my inner landscape; they had shaped me, down to every single last speck of sand and shell.
So how does one learn to “look” differently? We all seek truth, but do we even know how to look for it, or recognize it when we are blinking blindly right at its smiling face? We can, in fact, change the way we see, its called choice.
I have been witnessing in a brand new way here in the jungle. There are so many things to notice or not notice, and they show me myself, in a crystal clear mirror wrapped with vines and hummingbirds, with blooming voluptuous flowers. They show themselves in unique and exotic ways; the tiniest bug you would surely mistake for a speck of mold, the quick and sudden flutter of the smallest eyelashes of the bejaflor that lets you know that yes, it is alive and breathing and all is well. The way a bee asks for help in the way it swims in its graceful frantic upon the surface of the water. The dance of the leaves that lets you know which way that cool and cleansing breeze is blowing in. The sound just before the other sound, that lets you know the papaya is ready to drop from the tree, spreading sweet release and sweeter nectar all over the roots and tendrils of its own mother. I watch, I listen, I see, even with closed eyes, Pachamama is teaching me how to perceive.
I have been blessed to meet with some sacred medicines of the earth here; ancient wisdom whispered from the Amazon rain forests, that travels on the backs of luminescent frogs, and arrows that stream through the air, their waves and wobbles carrying them through the timelessness of the ancient future. Rapeh and sananga, I am so grateful to have met you both in my time of seeing.
Rapeh is the ancient and wise spirit of Grandfather Tobacco, mixed with the ashes of many sacred trees. It is powdered and blown up the nose, left to right, with a adorned bamboo pipe called a kirupe. It balances and decalcifies the pineal gland, clears the mind, and brings the sight of the third eye. My psychic awareness and visioning capacity has evolved so fast in such a short period of time by using this sacred medicine; Grandfather is teaching me to see and TRUST what I see.
Sananga comes from a sacred bush that grows in the Amazon, and comes in a slightly cloudy liquid form, in a tiny dropper bottle. So much power in such a small little container, it is really unfathomable. These drops are used by Amazonian tribes before they go hunting to give them super enhanced sight for tracking in the jungle, jaguar eyes, if you will. One single tiny drop lets go from the dropper into each eye, and the journey begins. The amount of pain you feel in your body when you are gifted the drops is unlike anything I have ever experienced in my life. Maybe giving birth would come close, but then again, maybe not. As the pain body explodes, the journey is, of course, in the mind. You have to breathe through it to make it to the other side. Sananga clears the old ways of perceiving the world around you, literally burning away the “old eyes”. When the pain finally subsides, ever so slowly, you are left in a very deep trance state of meditation, and when you are finally able to open the eyes fully to the world once more, they are truly anew. There is a higher way of seeing, you can feel it, you can sense it, and the shades and colors you once new are forever transformed.
Even now writing this, I can feel the energetics of my eyes; the visions are strong, with eyes open or closed, it no longer matters. The ways in which I see myself and my earth walk experience have completely shifted, so much less conditioned, and so much more an authentic expression of my very own truth. I am grateful for the gifts of my lineage, but the old worn out way of looking at the world with half shut, half open eyes, are the no longer serving wisps of energy that leave me more and more, moment by moment, every time I blink.
So open. I invite you to open. A girl with three eyes alight, and a trust in the truth that she sees and the wider eyed ways that show themselves when you are truly paying attention. Let them show you who you really are. Let us see.