"Sometimes things are just what they are. Do not limit the fullness of your experience by incessantly trying to put cosmic labels on it. Open to the meaning held in the Tao of the moment."
- The Mayan Oracle -
Yesterday I awoke in a state of confusion and darkness. I had dreamed I was sitting in ceremony, and was unable to purge all night. All that was unable (or unwilling) to release in the dream state carried over when I opened my eyes. Thoughts of who am I, what am I doing, and why the f am I in Costa Rica ran rampant through my mind. With a sigh, my heart whispered a prayer for clarity and shed tears and tiny rivers of gracias.
Hours later I was met with offerings of RAPÉ, powdered sacred grandfather tobacco mixed with the ashes of roots from sacred trees, and SANANGA, a very powerful sacred eye medicine, which is made from a shrub called apocynaceae from the Amazon jungle.
I received these medicines with an open wide heart, and was held in a very beautiful space of powerful and peaceful beings. As the medicines ran through me, directing me to a place of perfect presence, I witnessed myself surrender deeply as I released so much. When I could finally open my eyes fully, there was laughter in my belly, gratitude in my heart, a smile on my face, and a gorgeous tribe of people smiling back at me.
Today I awoke with so much more clarity, feeling that all my old thought patterns had been cut at the cord. The universe speaks in such simple softness, I am constantly humbled by the teachings of this jungle I am so grateful to be surrounded and supported by. I am me, I am doing exactly what I came here to do, and I am here in the jungles of Costa Rica to heal myself.
Gracias, Pachamama, for teaching me to kiss your belly with every single step. Thank you for this great learning of what it means to be HUMBLE.